This blog has served its purpose. Originally it was intended solely as a means of getting my bottled-up stuff out during a time when there was a lot of recovery going on in almost every part of my life. It helped sweep much of the old debris out-- stuff that just no longer worked, if it had even worked at all.
Later, after being contacted by some, I learned that my experiences were shared by others who had lived through some of the same things I had. They shared that these experiences helped them in their own recovery processes in different ways. So the blog was kept up to help those coming out and finding their way in a strange, new world. And of course it was written in a way that put it in a (mostly) humorous context. Laughter is healing. Laughter helped me a lot in the beginning of this process! Where it wasn't so humorous, there was genuine feeling and emotion there and I think a lot of people understood that, especially if they'd been where I had been.
But today it all turned a corner for me. And I made the decision to take it down. This wasn't easy. In some way I'd like to think these posts could continue to help others. And I'd willingly share these stories again if asked. But I've also come to realize that I can't continue to heal and grow at the expense of others. Although we may fundamentally disagree on certain things the time had finally come to close this chapter of my life and move forward.
Where this journey takes me next I don't know. And in some realms of the internet I'll continue to try and help those stumbling about. For where would I be without those who went before?
No matter where you are in the process-- questioning, coming out, headed back in, etc.-- know that 1) You are not alone. There are others of us out here who have come through it and 2) Trust the process.
So get out there! Enjoy life. Don't burn Smurfs. Keep your mind and your heart open.
I have trusted this process as its unfolded. Sometimes willingly, sometimes being dragged kicking and screaming. I only wish that whoever may read this can trust the process too. It takes a good deal of faith to trust that everything works out, and I think that is something on which we can agree: Gotta have faith.
Be well.
